So I was going to post a longer post, sort-of about something similar, but I started to write it and I got all caught up in my words and couldn’t quite get them in the right order to say what I wanted to say. So I’m holding off on that post for now, but basically it all boils down to this: I’m so happy with where I am right now.
I feel so blessed and thankful for everything that has been a part of my life thus far and that has gotten me to where I am today. I am thankful for God’s constant presence in my life and everything that he has given me. I’m thankful for my childhood and all my experiences. I love the way I grew up and where I grew up and all the people that were and still are a part of my life. I am so thankful for my scholarship and getting to come to New Orleans. I love the life that I’ve created here. I will always love my hometown more and in a different way, but I love New Orleans for different reasons. It has been the place where I’ve truly become my own person and made a life separate from my family. Being apart from everyone else that I know (other than Drew) has helped me to grow up and learn to do things on my own. I will always love the memories I have, but New Orleans has enabled me to move on and focus on the future and the now, instead of the past. I finally feel like an adult. I finally feel like I have grown into myself.
I feel like I have gained so much knowledge in many of the classes I have taken here. Not only have I learned the subject matter, but I feel like many of the classes have gone beyond that and taught me something about myself. Or about life or the world in general. I feel like they have added an essential dimension to myself. Not only to figuring out what I want to do in life, but even just to make me think about something I wouldn’t have before or to notice something I wouldn’t have before. I’m excited to see the person that I will be by the time I graduate. I feel like I’ve already changed so much and I’ve only been here a year and a half.
More than that, I’m thankful for where Drew and I are. Being in New Orleans together has added so much to our relationship. We’ve been dating three and a half years and we’ve known for quite a while that it would last for a whole lot longer than that. But because we were young, we felt like it was only proper to grow into our relationship for a little while before we took it any farther. Now that we are engaged, it feels so great! It feels like it is exactly where we should be right now in our lives and I’m so thankful for that. I didn’t expect to feel an overwhelming sense of relief just because of our engagement, but I don’t know how better to describe it. It feels so nice to be able to show the world how we feel, without worrying about someone else’s thoughts or expectations, and to just do what was right for us. Plus I am beyond excited to be able to actually decide on things for my wedding and collect things for my trousseau! (pronounced true-sew, a french word meaning the collection of things for your home once you get married, see here.)
Overall, I’m so thankful for the peace I feel in my life at the moment. I know that where I’m at and what I’m doing is the right thing for me and exactly where I should be. It just completely amazes me how God has opened up every door that has led me to where I am, exactly when I needed it to open. Thank you God.